So Easter is a HUGE thing in my life…. that sounds weird, however for me it has nothing to do with eggs (well I love the resurrection eggs, but not the dyed ones), bunnies, or baskets, instead it’s all about the cross!
This year our church offered a Seder dinner with Sam Rotman leading the teaching. I knew this event was going to be a struggle for our three news additions to the family which are very ….. selfish, greedy, and entitled, for lack of a better description. This sounds horrid, however it is exactly what we are facing! Unfortunately these children have been taught to lie about birthday’s to get free items at the theaters, restaurants, etc., telling people running concessions at sports events that they are too cute to not get something for free, and they are all about “potlucks” to get as much free stuff as they can even to the point of be sick. I knew we could get them to be excited to attend because it is called a “dinner “! So we walked in the hall to these plates……
So I am sure you can already hear these children’s comments when we walked into the dinner. “Misty I am hungry, this isn’t dinner!”, “Misty this isn’t what we ordered!”, “Misty you said we would have dinner, not an old person snack”. Again, I gave the vague mom answer of we will have to see because I had never attended these dinner before. I know that a couple of our kids got a little out of the service, however as I think back to last night and the teaching I wonder if they will ever learn to have a servants heart, to be satisfied with what they have, and if they will every fully understand God’s grace and blessings!
As a mother that lives her life on God’s terms, even when it hurts to follow Him, even when I am waiting f-o-r-e-v-e-r for Him to open the door, and even when I am baffled that this is what he has called me to do, how do I move forward with these 3 children who are older and feel that their biological mother does no wrong!
I have always felt that if I just stay the course and continue to be who I am it will make a difference in their lives, however to be 100% honest I am fearful that it is not getting through to them! And this makes me panicked!!!! I don’t want them to be lost, I don’t want them to be swayed by Earthly world views. What do I do? Where do I turn?
As we listened to the stories, history, symbolism, and prayers, I felt God’s presence and I had my eyes opened to pieces of the passover story that I had never paid much attention to. I could see them getting little pieces of the story, however overall they were less than impressed with the entire encounter.
As I went to bed last night I prayed that God would take the meager seeds we have sown and bring a desire to be more like Jesus! Let’s face it every parent, mentor, Big, etc has thought about the positive impact they are making on the children they are interacting with right? So if God has called me to this life of service then why do I feel so ill equiped?
As we walked through the Seder meal we talked about God’s plagues on the Earth and we interactively dipped our finger in the grape juice, placing a drop on the napkin for each plaque. After the plagues ended Sam pointed out we each had a pool of what is symbolically Jesus’s blood. And then he took it even farther!!! Each year his family would do this and then his mother would take the “plagued” napkins and burn them in the back yard essentially removing the bad from their home, just as Jesus’s blood has wiped all the sins of our heart away. I instantly closed my eyes and prayed that Jesus would become a real tangible person to them throughout the rest of the dinner and that they would see just how much he gave for them personally.
As you can clearly see, Ozzy was not impressed by any of the dinner including the juice and the story! He sat like this with his back to Sam throughout the dinner and interrupted my concentration several times to tell me he was hungry. Not only did he have this reaction last night, but all day today as well! When I asked Blaze what stood out to him the most he voiced that he liked the apple cinnamon paste and when I said was there something that stood out about the story he replied “well I have always wanted to learn how crackers were made”. Incert deep sigh here!!! And little miss Lillian answered that her favorite part was the cracker! Incert yet another sigh here, but wait….. then she added that she loved when Mr. Sam broke his cracker that wasn’t supposed to be touched and said “this is my body broken for you. Oh and when Jesus asked his disciples to guard him, but they feel asleep twice and Jesus cried blood.” INSERT HUGE GRIN HERE!!! She actually listened and got something out of the teaching.
Ok so back to Ozzy, when I asked him what he liked he actually had an answer! “Well I loved Sam’s piano music after the story, and I loved how each piece of plate was a part of the story”. Be still my heart! Those seeds we are planting are oh so slowly taking root!
As I continued asking my children about the evening I heard our second to youngest said he loved how Jesus was crucified and it affect every part of His body for us. Scott voiced how he enjoyed hearing how the Jewish religion and his Christian religion overlapped and “melted together”. Jon said he finally figured out why they put blood over their doors!
I guess what God has shown me through this dinner is that everything that happens is preplanned by God and He is walking with us throughout our crazy journey! I have also been reminded that just as we are faithful so is He!