Now I know, every Christian has this thought. Be it over television, internet, and even sometimes people we invite in as we work to show them God. However, when we live with what is perceived as evil. What do we as Christians do?
This is where I find myself today!! I have been working through Revelations and 1 John 3-4….and goodness I am truly in a spiritual battle with how I am feeling towards one of the kids.
Now I am not flat out saying he is Satan (it sure feels like it sometimes), but I am questioning how I respond to him and his behaviors as not just a mom, but a Christian mom?
This kiddo has been with us for just about 4 years now. I also know that part of his behaviors is attributed to being on the autism spectrum. LOGICALLY, I understand that he will not handle social situations anywhere near appropriately. I know he will never function at his level, but do I have to face a life time of raising a child and young adult that is so self centered and unwilling (yes, I said unwilling because I truly in my heart of hearts believe that is his choice) to be a part of any family unless he is the center of the universe.
How do I work through this and keep my heart for Jesus?? How do I safeguard myself when I would typically plant my seeds and walk away for God to work His will in this life? I just don’t know what to do, or truly how to be in this situation! Turn to the word right….
And they devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and the fellowship, to the breaking of bread and the prayers. Acts 2:42 ESV
So, I reached out to my mentors. Tearfully and full of fear I might add!! This was God’s word through them:
Dear friend, listen well to my words; tune your ears to my voice. Keep my message in plain view at all times. Concentrate! Learn it by heart! Those who discover these words live, really live; body and soul, they’re bursting with health. Keep vigilant watch over your heart; that’s where life starts. Don’t talk out of both sides of your mouth; avoid careless banter, white lies, and gossip. Keep your eyes straight ahead; ignore all sideshow distractions. Watch your step, and the road will stretch out smooth before you. Look neither right nor left; leave evil in the dust. Proverbs 4:20-27 MSG
Yeah…..let that one sink in a little!! I have to keep my focus on God and His plan and will!! He has brought this child to me not to torture me or him, but to grow BOTH of us! Walking with my son has grown me and minute by minute continues to grow me!!
When I step back and evaluate our walk as a family….yes we let Satan in!! We bring in the trauma, heartache, and corruption into our home. HOWEVER, this is where Jesus met people and made the biggest change in their lives!! We are following Jesus by walking with this child as he fights to stay with what he knows. While God battles for his soul, we are entrusted with his care, protection, and …dare I say it….shaping him for his future.
I guess one could ask ….. how are you not letting Satan in? How are you following Jesus, and keeping these elements/frustrations out?